May 22nd 2026

OOOps, I skipped a few days.  Sorry about that.   I've been a bit busy being "Exhausted" and "brain fog ridden".

     I am at just a few weeks after my last chemo. Heard that it takes 3 months for the chemo (chemicals) to leave your body, but the side effects are lasting years and years. I refuse to adhere to this rule. HA !.. Look at me prove them wrong. (Or will I?)  I had a couple great days but this last week has been brutal. I feel like I have the flu. I do not: but I just feel like it. My middle finger on my left hand hurts, it feels like the tip is being stabbed with a knife. My pinky and finger next to it on my right hand (dominant hand) is numb, can't feel a thing, gripping a cup is semi-dangerous. Been staying steadily numb for a week now. I don't think it's going to get better. Typing on my keypad here, is a challenge. I need voice entry. that would be better.  And last but not least, my right foot is Buzzing.. Feels like bees just under the skin, walking is interesting, it's like my foot wants to fall asleep, but just hasn't yet. Not painful, just extremely annoying.. 

 Anyway, Been sleeping in my lazy boy a lot through the day. had a great conversation with my big sis yesterday, a lot of laughing. That made me so joyous. Laughing is great medicine. I miss my family. Wish I felt well enough to visit with more, but, so far. I pay a hefty price when I get out of the house to go "visit".  Went to go see my mom day before mothers day: Boy did that one cost me. I think I am still recovering. It was awesome to see her and my step dad though. Worth the price.

    I so very much wanted to hang out with my FIL and hubby today (they had a Dr. appointment to get to) all I really had to do was sit in the car. but I just couldn't muster up the energy to leave the house. (Cancer/chemo survivors understand this).

If you know me, you know that I HATE being Homebound (or at least, not in control of if I leave or not). I used to be an active person. Maybe someday I can get back to that. But simply riding in a car for 45 minutes take every ounce of energy I have and it wipes me out 15 minutes in. THIS SUCKS. Trying to stay upbeat and positive, but it is so darn frustrating. Find myself randomly tearing up and praying for god to give me the Mental strength to get through this crap and get better.

    So I guess today is a "lounge and get caught up on sitcom" Day. UGH. Just like yesterday and the day before that.  

I am re-watching the old sci-fi series: Fringe On Disney. If you haven't seen I highly recommend it.