May 30th

Well, yesterday was an amazing day for me.  Let me backtrack for a second. On Tuesday, May 26th, 2026 we were sent to get the Post Chemo CT scan and bloodwork to see where I stand with the cancer. The CT scan With dye, it will glow if cancer cells are present. We had our follow up visit with the Gyn. Oncologist on Thursday 28th. The results should have been back by then, but they were not. So, wasted visit? no. Not really, we discussed the plan going forward.

Bloodwork every three months now. Specifically two tests: The Signatera test and the CA 125.  The Signatera test (first time) will take 8 weeks to get the results because they have to take the sample from the initial surgery and map out the DNA of the cancer itself, and then compare it to my blood sample taken on Thursday.  It will tell if the cancer DNA is still present (and how much of it) is in my blood currently.  So I will find out the results on that test around my 56th birthday (1st week of August).   After that, each Signatera test will only take about two weeks to come back. Less of a wait.

Well, I have the app on my phone for our Medical/Hospital system. So when the CT scans came back (Yesterday) I couldn't contain myself, I had to go look. I knew what I was looking for.  With this particular type of cancer (it never truly goes away, it is 100% guaranteed to come back you just don't know how long it will take.) we are looking for NED. No Evidence of Disease. NOT cured, NOT cancer Free.. The best we can hope for with this cancer is NED..

That is what it said. NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE

Now, I understand that this is just half of the results.  In two months I will have the DNA results telling me whether the cancer DNA is still present or not. That's okay. I already knew and accepted that, I will be dealing with this cancer again.  I'm good with that.. I am ready to move on, knowing this will all happen again someday. No stress, no worries.

I survived, what was the most horrific thing I have ever went through in my entire life. I absolutely hated it, and there were moments I told myself and my husband that I am done, I will never do this again.  But I am here to tell you, that after having gotten through it, I WILL choose to do it again. Because my life on this planet is not over yet and I want 20 more years. SOOOOO. I will be doing it again at some point. Knowing this, and accepting this, is very important for the mental health. I am able to move on an enjoy life, even though I don't know when, I just know that I will, go through this again.      And you can too.  

If you want to talk feel free to leave a comment below, if you want private converstation: Please email me at rlbadwin9 @ gmail.com